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I’ve always taken them for granted, you know. They’ve just always
been there, and I never even gave a moment’s thought as to what things would be
like without them. Granted, Chris, my older brother, was never my favorite, but
he’s still my brother, and we had some pretty good times growing up, until he
went sort of crazy.
And Darin . . . well, hes a typical little brother. What
can I say? For a while, when I had a drivers license and he didnt,
we got pretty close, since I automatically became his appointed chauffeur.
Now that he drives, I dont see him much anymore.
Charlene and Cynthia, my little sisters, have turned out to
be pretty cool. When they were little, they did tons of crying and screaming,
and were extremely obnoxious. But now theyre growing up a little, and
its easier to be nice to them. Charlene idolizes me, ever since I pulled
her out of that fire at the skating rink, and Cynthia thinks Im the
greatest big brother that ever walked the face of the earth. So, hey . .
. Im not going to argue.
And, of course, Mom and Dad have ALWAYS been there. And
theyve done a decent job of raising us kids, even if I do say so myself.
Theyre good parents, and theyve always done their best to provide
everything we needed: physically, as well as spiritually and emotionally.
Were a pretty regular familynothing all that special.
But this experience put everything in a different focus. All
of a sudden, I got thinking; what would things have been like without Charlene
or Cynthia? I dont mean if they were never born. I mean, what if one
of them had died when she was littlelike in an accident or something?
How would we get along without her? Would we think about her a lot? Would
we be sad for months and years? Would we keep her room the way it was? Would
we wonder what she would have looked like all grown up?
And, even worse, what if one of them just suddenly up and
disappeared? Like if some mansome evil, uncaring, despicable beast
of a manwere to take her away when we werent looking. How would
we deal with that? All the same questions would apply, plus a hundred more!
It would be even worse than if she had died, I think, because there would
always be the not knowing.
Where is she now? Is she safe? Is she healthy? Is she pretty?
Does she remember us? Does she still love us? Is she being loved and cared
for?
Every time we saw a girl the same age, we would wonder; is it
her? Would we even be able to recognize her if we saw her again? What if
shes being mistreated, deprived, or abused? What if shes not
growing up in a good home? What if she doesnt have good morals and
values? Heaven forbid . . . what if shes not even alive?
The list is endless. Wed never know. Life as we knew it
would cease to exist. Mom and Dad would probably never let any of us out
of their sight again. All holidays and birthdays would become memorial days.
It would be like losing a vital organ. The family would be forever crippled
and deformednever quite rightnever whole.
And THEN, what if, by some fantastic miracle, we found her again?
Or she came back. Or someone else found her ten or fifteen or even twenty-five
years later. What then? Would she be excited to see us? Would she want to
come back? Would she be interested at all in her true family?
Or would she break all our hearts by staying with her
other family? Would she ignore us like we didnt even exist?
Losing her the second time would be even worse than the first. It would be
a fatal blow to our fragile existenceknowing shes there, but
no longer ours.
Yeah, I took them all for granted. A family is a family is a
family . . . blah, blah, blah.
Until the year I started collegethe year I learned how
valuable children really are. |